Why can't I find happiness in my life? Why must I be depressed, angry, and anxious? These are questions that come into our minds all the time, but everyone keeps saying "I want happiness, but I can't find it." The thing is happiness is actually a by-product of Joy.

Suddenly my brain felt different – I was convinced I had run someone over. I remember looking in my mirror and seeing nothing but darkness behind me. I arrived home and felt like I had left my body and entered into a new, worse, version of it. That was the first time I can remember experiencing OCD...