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What the Heck Am I Doing? The Adventure of Saying "Yes"

By:  Mission Team April 16, 2021

As I start to write, it is 4 am in the morning, it's pouring rain, I'm sick to my stomach, my allergies to the pollen are going crazy, and to top it all off, my shoes are wet because I stepped in a puddle on the way to the car. What the heck am I doing with my life right now?!?

Sorry, I'm a complainer, I love to complain about everything. Yesterday, someone said to me "I'm gonna start just going off on tangents of gratuity every time I start to get in my head." I think it's dumb, to be honest, but I'll give it a try. as I type this on my cracked and half-dead phone, I'm gonna try and just be grateful, but only for 5 minutes because this seems exhausting. I suppose, to be honest, I can't help but laugh.

Never, and I mean never, would I have ever thought I would be doing what I am doing right now. You see, God is a prankster. When I was little, I prayed that God would take me on an adventure. To be honest, I still don't really know what exactly an "adventure" entails, but I know "this" is definitely it.


As I got older my desires split into two things that were opposites it seemed. I desired to know God, and I desired to indulge my free spirit and go on an adventure. I didn't realize that they would end up being the same thing. St. Augustine has a famous quote that says: "To fall in love with God is the greatest romance; to seek Him the greatest adventure; to find Him, the greatest human achievement." That pretty much sums up how I'm feeling.

I said yes to God once, when I decided to become a missionary. And here is where it got me: on the greatest adventure I could have possibly imagined.

So uh God... if You're listening (or I guess reading?), I want You to know I'm grateful. I'm so insanely grateful to find myself even in this situation. I could be all cheesy and be like "I'm grateful I have shoes even if they're wet, or I'm grateful I have a car to even go to," but no. I'm grateful for so much more. These are just things God has given me to make the journey easier.

How often have I stopped and just been grateful I'm on a journey in the first place? People try their whole lives to have fun while searching for God. I'm already fulfilled, happy, and excited looking for Him, and I'm only eighteen! Wow, this is awesome. How many people can say they do what I do, or impact lives the way God has chosen them? It's actually stupid. Like when I step back and see where God has placed me amidst a country that seems like it's falling apart at the seams, He chose me to go on an adventure and follow him at the same time. Wow, I'm stupid lucky.

When I complain, I can't help but laugh about it. This is what I asked for, and it comes with all of it. The good, the bad, and the ugly. There is so much more good than anything else. And this goes for everyone's life. If you can only find things to complain about and can't find more things to be grateful for, then odds are you just aren't a creative person. So I urge you. In the name of every educational cartoon you ever watched when you were a kid, please, exercise your creativity! Start finding things to be grateful for!

That right there might have just been a tangent, but hey who doesn't like a little math… Ok maybe lots of people. Disregard that last statement. Anyway, I still urge you, whoever you are, just take 5 minutes and go off on what you're grateful for. And really get to the heart of it.

There's no need to stay at surface-level things. There's so much more to be grateful for. And if you can't think of anything to go off about maybe try chasing down God a little harder. I can guarantee you that it will result in an adventure that you can't help but laugh about and be grateful for.

Saying yes to becoming a missionary was the best, worst decision I've ever made. Best, because it made me start living a life for Jesus and I don't think there is any going back now that I've seen how awesome it is. But it's also the worst decision because I'm living a life for Jesus, and I don't think there is any going back to a worldly life of comfort.

No matter how much suffering or hardship I fall upon, I'm still going to want to follow Christ. As a matter of fact, I'm grateful for my sufferings too because they make the adventure that much sweeter - if nothing else, my sufferings make this great story called "life" much more juicy and exciting. So when I get to the climax (Heaven), I'll have a story worth telling to the Big Man. So if you want to change your life, go on an adventure, and have more things to be grateful for. You need only say yes to Him.


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About the Author Mission TeamThe mission team is made up of writers within the HN team who serve for a time with our ministry to Awaken the World to the Power of God's Love. Through their efforts, their vision of making a world where no one suffers alone is an encouragement to many hurting people of all ages. 


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