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Being Afraid of Myself

Being Afraid of Myself

 
By:  Mission Team April 30, 2021
#AmazingNation, #Failure, #Faith, #love, #Strength

What am I capable of? I know I can accomplish things. I know that I have skills and talents, but what can I do to someone? Will I hurt them? Will I love them through the pain? I’m unsure of how I could impact them. I’m not sure whether it will be negative or positive. I don’t know the damage I could do to another person.

This is something that can be subconsciously thought about. Even if it’s not being actively thought, it is what takes the potentiality to the action. It’s what we surround our thoughts around. “How will this affect that person?”

I’m afraid of my own actions. Why is it so easy to get angry? Why do I get frustrated at something so little? I get nervous that I will hurt someone. I have a tendency of getting angry at people. Even if they don’t even do anything to me, I get so heated. “Why can’t they just think the way I do??” It’s so hard for me to understand other people’s brains. It’s always been a hard thing to grasp and is the main cause for my anger. Because of this, I’m scared of who I am. I know what I can do, but will I? How will I go about it?

I know I have the capabilities of hurting someone and I’m afraid of the future me that will come from it. “How will I treat them?” These thoughts arise as new opportunities as they come into my life. New people come in, and I have literally no idea how they think. I don’t know them, and not knowing is hard.

This can be a confusing thought process. We can have faith in ourselves. We have to believe in ourselves, that we can be that hope for others. Love always overcomes the anger and hatred. It’s a choice. There is a way to maintain control in life.

 

 This can come through self-knowledge. Yet, it cannot be prideful. We have to be able to know ourselves without letting pride and ego step in the way. The reason I can be afraid of myself is because I doubt my ability to have self-control. It’s like I don’t even take into account my strength to love others. I’ve settled with sin.

 As self-control is a virtue, we CAN achieve it. It’s easy to feel bad for ourselves when it does feel so far away. Maybe we enjoy the lack of self-control and strength because we get to pity ourselves. Don’t let yourself fall into the enjoyment of pitying yourself because you feel you lack self-control. Life has become an easy place to just settle where we feel comfortable. However, God calls us to more; He calls us to Himself and the virtues that He proceeds to rain down on us.

He wants us to have this self-knowledge; it’s one of the components of having a conscience. By this, we get to know ourselves, we get to process the way we perceive and think: it’s a gift. Not only this, but God has chosen us for a specific place and time. We are more than the anger and thoughts; we each are a child of God. He has chosen the people and has allowed the circumstances to be present in our very own life, we are His. Because of this, we don’t have to be afraid of ourselves.

I don’t have to be scared for myself and the ways I will react. Yes, feelings and emotions will seem like they’ll override me sometimes, but knowing that the other person is also a child of God is what is important. We each have been created in a unique way. We have to choose charity in all things. We must be able to use the example that Christ has left us to love others, even in the midst of frustration.

 

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About the Author Mission TeamThe mission team is made up of writers within the HN team who serve for a time with our ministry to Awaken the World to the Power of God's Love. Through their efforts, their vision of making a world where no one suffers alone is an encouragement to many hurting people of all ages. 


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