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A God of Disappointment: My Search for Joy

A God of Disappointment: My Search for Joy

 
By:  Mission Team June 5, 2021
#AmazingNation, #Faith, #God, #Hope, #Live

“You’re serving a god of disappointment! I never want to see it again!”

These words greeted me during our weekly Friday morning workout a few months ago. At some point during the workout, our leader looked at me and he said, “I have watched you serve a god of disappointment for the past 8 months.” He added, “I never want to see it again!” I was taken aback for a moment. Was I serving a god other than my Heavenly Father? And for 8 months?

But he was right.I started to reflect on myself and if this was true. I realized that our leader had been right. Looking back at my attitude the past 8 months, I was down in a mood more often than not. I lacked hope.  But what could I do about it? How could I get out of my disappointment? I looked at my future, and all I saw was the bleak disappointing future without hope.

I saw myself with no community, no mentor, no spiritual director, without my Grandmothers, who had recently passed, and nobody who knew me. I would be losing my friends. I saw myself going right back to the life I had previously known, that had not made me happy, and where I didn’t have a purpose or fulfillment in my life. Why shouldn’t I be disappointed? There was not much to look forward to in my life.

But I have a good God, a God who will take care of his children. I kept asking myself, how do I stop serving a god of disappointment when there is nothing to look forward to in my life? But God has been showing me that I need to have joy in my life. Joy is not a feeling, but a choice. It is different from happiness. Happiness is a feeling, joy is a choice. God has also shown me that He will come through for me during the hard times and He will take care of my needs.

So what did He do for me?

God opened doors for me that I thought had closed. He showed me that His plan for my future was far brighter than the bleak life I was pegging for myself. Instead, God has put an opportunity into my life that will give me a community, friends, people who know me, and something that I can do that will give me a purpose, and where I can’t waste my day away.

God has shown me that the way that I look at things, is not the way that He looks at things. He has given me hope for my future that had not previously existed.

I know that I need to fight for joy in my life. I’ll admit, it’s hard. I have been struggling to fight through the disappointment. But I know that every day, I get to wake up and fight again. Each day I can start at zero and work to get that joy in my life and to bring joy to the lives of those around me.

Thank you, God, for being such a great Father!

 


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About the Author Mission TeamThe mission team is made up of writers within the HN team who serve for a time with our ministry to Awaken the World to the Power of God's Love. Through their efforts, their vision of making a world where no one suffers alone is an encouragement to many hurting people of all ages. 


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