Growing up, I had a lot of  negativity in my life. A member of my family was constantly bringing me down with words like “No one likes you”, “What’s wrong with you”, etc. Since this was my first impression of the world, I believed the words this person told me, and deemed them truth; I thought everyone felt this way about me. I became an extremely negative, hateful person. I hated everyone, especially myself. 

My senior year of high school was when everything began to change. I began to implement Mark 11:24 - “Anything you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it and it will be be yours.” So, before you receive what you have been praying for, you should act as though you have received it; you should expect it.  When I hear this, two things stand out to me: having unwavering faith in God,  and praying prayers of gratitude. This combined with Philippians 4:8- “Whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is gracious, if there is any excellence and if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.” These two verses made me realize how important positivity is.  I began starting off my day with “Every day is a good day” “and today is going to be GREAT day.” I expected it.  Along with this affirmation, came the birth of gratitude tangents. 

A gratitude tangent is when you immerse yourself in God’s goodness by being aware and bringing attention to all that He has blessed you and this world with. It’s called a tangent because ideally, due to its nature, it is never ending. The only way it ends is if it is interrupted. In order to perform a gratitude tangent, you first start off with a person that you are particularly grateful for. For me, I usually start off with my mom or dad. You would express your gratitude for this person by saying, “God, thank you for my mom.” Then I would express my gratitude for the first thing that my mom would make me think of. From there I could say, “Thank you for the conversation that she and I had the other day, or I could say, “Thank you for my dad.” It’s important to always say the first thing that pops into your head. The beauty of a gratitude tangent is that it can go on for forever. 

Since I attended a high school that was forty-five minutes away,  I would often do my gratitude tangents in the car on my way to school. I remember times where I would get so into it, that by the end, I would be thanking God for the car in front of me and praying for the person inside that car. Now, looking back at it, I realize that my senior was the happiest year of life. I had a close relationship with God and I had such a grateful, joyful heart. 

My life had been changed because I changed my mind. Rather than expecting negativity and releasing negative thoughts into the world, I expected positivity, abundance, and goodness.